Went to the doctor today. Got a full battery of STI tests. "So I'm going to suggest an HIV blood test," she said. "Just to make sure." "Yes," I said. "You mentioned you didn't like needles," she prompted. "Yes," I said. We stared at each other for a long moment. "Blood tests mean needles," she said, finally. "Yes," I said. "Is this, like, fainting and throwing up don't like needles?" she asked. "No," I said. "I'll just cry." I was already on the edge of tears, thinking about it. "Oh." She sounded surprised. "Okay." I don't think she's ever encountered a patient who just cried. Not many people have. Fear is fear is fear, but I won't let fear get in the way of my health. Anyway, things went well enough, and I didn't even cry that much. Results come in in a week, and because I had the HIV test as well, I have to go down to get my results in person. I really, really doubt I'll have HIV, but you never know, right? Better check it out, just to be sure. Ugh. My arm hurts. Also my cervix. That was Unpleasant, with a capital U. . ~Rosie.
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