Am I really all heartbroken over G, or do I just fancy I am? Sometimes I meet people that are all 'poor me, everything sucks' and I want to slap them. I wonder if people want to slap me. I like to think not. The things I vent in this diary, I rarely vent in real life. Only to those nearest and dearest. I guess that makes you my nearest and dearest, too. "He is just waiting for the time when you are weak again," Caitlin told me today. "You cannot be weak." I have had some ciders, over at Mark and Kelly's place. Liquor makes me weak. Tonight I decided that if he ever calls me again, I will answer. I will probably yell at him, and end up crying into the receiver. All hot, wet, salty tears. Why would I answer, then, you ask? Because I still love the asshole. As you have probably guessed. But I will pretend I don't, and I will go out with Scott, and Chris, and maybe Ryan, if he actually comes to town. And I will hold these boys, and kiss these boys, and pretend until it's real. That's the way it works, right? RIGHT? . Rosie.
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