It feels like
the scene in the movie
where the hero, the absurd nobody thrust into the middle of the everything,
is staring into the abyss.
And that music is playing.
You know the kind.
Like every instrument is playing all at once. Bows shrieking across strings, the entire brass section is squealing out different notes.
And the camera does that thing where it pushes forward and pulls away at the same time.
There is so much tension, it will make you sick.
That's what it feels like in my head right now.
The only problem is, I can't figure out where the music is coming from.