I am afraid of everything. ~ I went to a wedding this weekend. Two of my dear friends got married. It was one of those marriages that was just Right. Everyone was thrilled. I was dressed to the nines. Wiggle dress that fit me in all the right places. Hair simple, make-up dramatic. Great legs, plain shoes. I felt like a million bucks, and I flirted with all the gay men and blasphemed my way through the rapture. I couldn't help but think of G. ~ In January, G told me that it felt like there was a rope attached to his heart, pulling him around. I know the feeling. I know the goddamned feeling. At the reception, I would forget about it. But every so often, when conversation went quiet and there was nothing to distract me, I could feel that rope pulling, pulling, pulling. I ignored it. But I checked my phone. Usually, when I got that feeling extra strong, he would call, or email. But nothing. It's all stupid, isn't it. I'm just stupid. ~ Am I obsessed with being broken hearted all the time? Am I obsessed with drama? I *do* work in the theatre. That's a lot of drama right there. I just don't know. ~ I totally hit on the brother of the bride. Not because I was particularly interested, but for scientific reasons. The bride is very much an anomaly in her conservative, roman-catholic, tight-laced family. So I showed some teeth, laughed, batted my eyelashes, and flirted with her brother just to see what would happen. I got a thorough explanation of the weather systems in Arizona. ... It was funny. . Rosie.
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