It's 3am, and the snakes have moved in. I'm playin' for four drunks, and me. But the beer is cold, and the memory's old, and the lights are so bright I can't see. I wish I could write music. It seems like a perfect outlet. You can convey so much, so much. As it is, I will just sing other people's music and wish I could play an instrument. ~ I was at the library today, shuffling through books on metalworking. And what fell into my lap? 'How To Make Money Using Etsy' I didn't check it out. ~ I went to a physiotherapist today, to deal with my leg. She dug into my butt muscle really hard, but it's feeling better. I don't want to be old before I'm old. She also prescribed yoga, which I kinda knew already. The community center has it for only six dollars, on mondays. I'm going to have to go. ~ Do you know the spoon theory, for energy? There are days that I feel like I have less spoons than other people. And some of my spoons are actually forks. I have dug myself into so many grooves in my life, I don't even notice the walls anymore. ~ Sometimes my left ring finger tingles, like I've just taken of a ring that I've worn for a long time. And for a split second I freak out, wondering where I dropped the ring. And then I remember: I have no ring. I don't know why it feels like that. I wonder if in some alternate universe, or many alternate universes, I am married, and it's the echo of that making it's way through. And I rub the base of the finger with my thumb, but the feeling doesn't really go away. It only started this year. It's weird. ~ Fuck I'm tired. Lonesome, I know you well. . ~Rosie.
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